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I've loved reading for as long as I can remember. I write fantasy, science fiction, mystery, and nonfiction. For more than 20 years I edited and published an anthropomorphic sci-fi/space opera literary fanzine. I attend and work on the staff for several anthropormorphics, anime, and science fiction conventions. I live near Seattle with my wonderful husband, still completely amazed that he puts up with me at all.

Here comes the gloom again

It’s that time of year. For the last 17 years I’ve been dealing with an annual bout of depression. It usually manifests as random moodiness, occasional bouts of the irrational grumpies alternating with periods of mild melancholy. Very rarely there are even periods of free-floating rage.

It typically starts in September or so, and the kick off is usually when I notice that my birthday is approaching. Because a long time ago, the approach of my birthday also meant the approach of Ray’s birthday, which meant I could start planning what I was going to give him and how we were going to celebrate our birthdays.

And each year the depression usually stops sometime around the anniversary of Ray’s death, November 14. It’s never a completely clean ending. Some years I have a good cry. Some years when I don’t feel I’m getting through it or it’s just being worse than usual, I schedule a marathon of movies that will make me cry, so I induce a good cry.

This isn’t the only time of year I get sad remembering him. There’s always a moment during the decorating of the Christmas tree where I’ll start crying again, for instance. It might be when I unwrap one of his favorite ornaments, for instance. Then there’s times when one certain Christmas song as recorded by one particular artist pops up.

Last year was particularly bad. Much worse than it had been in some while. I don’t know any particular reason it was worse last year.

I had noticed that it didn’t seem to be happening this year. I wondered if maybe because last year was so bad that maybe this year I’d get a pass. But no. This morning I woke up really cranky for no reason, and then while I was picking out clothes to wear today I glanced up, saw Ray’s favorite stuffed tiger in his usual spot on a shelf above one dresser and I just about burst into tears. Every little thing that has gone wrong today (and they’ve all been quite minor annoyances, really) has either made me disproportionately angry or completely demoralized.

I have friends and loved ones who deal with chronic depression. I always feel a little guilty for even mentioning my annual issue when it seems so minor by comparison. But one of the times I said that, another friend reminded me that there’s nothing unreal about grieving. It’s not a competition. And it isn’t a zero-sum game.

Just as grieving my late partner doesn’t detract from my love for my living husband, admitting I’m not well doesn’t take anything away from other people.

It’s been said that shared grief is divided, while shared joy multiplies. I think another way to look at it is: sharing pain doesn’t really diminish the load, but the shared compassion and empathy replenishes our reserves, so the grief becomes bearable.

So, anyone who needs a hug, consider this an open offer. Because we all need a little more love.

Trying too hard to proclaim oppression…

"Slow down!! Let's eat the damn turkey first!"
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When my husband asked me yesterday if I heard about people being angry about Starbucks holiday cups, my first thought was that people were upset because it’s too soon to be doing Christmas stuff. No. The actual problem, according to one of those anti-whatever groups that like to get the rightwing so-called Christian base up in arms is that the plain red cups with a green Starbucks logo is taking the Christ out of Christmas: Christian evangelists claim Starbucks fanned ‘war on Christmas’ with minimalist holiday red coffee cups

Yep, the annual fake War on Christmas is underway!

I can totally see their point. I mean, past Starbucks holiday cups have featured such unmistakeable symbols of Christ as extremely abstract snowflakes, abstract peppermint candies, a winking snowman, a bobsledding dog, a squirrel begging for an acorn, and who can forget the jazzy Santa Claus? [/sarcasm]

The number of times that these folks have claimed that people are erasing Christ from Christmas by citing a derth of Santa Claus imagery just cracks me up every time. I wrote previously about how when I was a kid growing up in Southern Baptist churches Santa Claus was not considered a symbol of Christian Christmas at all. Oh, we weren’t forbidden from having Santas in our homes or visiting Santas in shopping malls or expecting presents from Santa. But it was very clearly part of the secular celebration, and not to be allowed in the church building itself. Specifically I wrote about the time that the Day Care associated with the church I attended as a teen-ager allowed the children to sing a song about Santa Claus as part of the annual Christmas event at the day care, and how a whole bunch of the church ladies were very upset about it: Up on the house top…

For some context, I should point out that most of the Baptist Churches I attended growing up (we moved around a lot because of my Dad’s job) also didn’t believe in having a manager scene inside the sanctuary of the church, unless it was an actual reenactment of the birth of Jesus being performed as part of the service. They might have a big light-up manger scene out on the lawn next to the church sign, but not inside the chruch, because that was iconography or idolatry!

Many of them only allowed a Christmas tree to be out in the social hall or the lobby, but not in the sanctuary because the tree was considered mostly a secular symbol, as well.

Happy Thanksgiving!
Happy Thanksgiving!
Anyway, it’s silly. And it’s so silly, that when my husband and I went shopping later in the day yesterday, I had to go to Starbucks for the express purpose of getting something in the red cup.

Weekend Update – 11/7/2015: Children Being Failed

Source: thedesmondproject.com/Homelessness-Info.html (Click to embiggen)
Source: thedesmondproject.com/Homelessness-Info.html (Click to embiggen)
Every minute I’m blogging is a minute I’m not adding to my NaNoWriMo word count, but some things have crossed my virtual desktop since making yesterday’s Friday Links post that I think need to be shared.

First, many weeks back I shared links to the story of Joel Andrew, an 18-year-old student who was kicked out by his parents for being gay. They didn’t just kick him out, they refused to pay for tuition at the college he was enrolled at, they refused to sign any financial aid forms (which means that legally he can’t apply for federal aid until he turns 25, yes it’s a thing), and they demanded that he stop using his last name (Andrew is not his original surname). The daughter of his dance teacher set up a GoFundMe page to raise money to pay his tuition for one semester, tons of people donated, and so on. There’s more news, and it’s good news (as much as you can get from a story like this): College Dance Student Raises $60K For Tuition After Parents Disown Him For Being Gay. Go read the linked stories.

The parents now claim that they didn’t kick him out, and didn’t demand that he stop using their last name, but I strongly suspect that’s a case of the classic, “I didn’t tell him he had to move out. I told him that if he was living under my roof who would have to stop seeing his boyfriend, stop admitting he’s gay, et cetera, et cetera.” Anyway, Joel is doing alright, now. Which is good. I want to echo Dan Savage’s comments that there are a lot of Joels out there who didn’t have someone to set up a GoFundMe page. We can help kids like Joel by donated to organizations such as the Ali Forney Center, the True Colors Fund, or the Point Foundation. There are a lot of local charities that serve the homeless, particularly homeless teens. Find one near you and help if you can.

Second: I included one link yesterday to news that the Latter Day Saints church has officially declared that gay members are no longer simply sinning, but are now apostates, and not only that, but that children of gay people in same sex relationships are banned from Baptism and serving in the church until they turn 18 and then only if they renounce their own parents. As Natasha Helfer Parker writes at Patheos: ‘…how dare we go against our own doctrines and punish the children for the “sins of their fathers?”‘ Being an apostate means that one has renounced or completely abandoned their faith and it in utter rebellion against said faith and principals. Calling being in a gay relationship ‘apostasy’ puts it on par with murder and rape, and as more than one observer as commented, the church doesn’t refuse baptism to the children of murderers nor rapists. It’s got more than a few members upset, obviously.

It would be really easy to make snarky comments. When stories like this are posted on gay news sites, there are always people chiming in with, “what gay person would want to live in {fill in name of extremely conservative state}” or “why would anyone want to belong to a religion that doesn’t welcome them?” or “all religions are B.S. anyway, so why should we care?” and so on. My answer remains the same: we don’t choose where we are born and we don’t choose which family we are born into. As children we were dependent on our families and communities of origin for the means of survival. Policies like this hurt people who cannot protect themselves. They create an atmosphere of bullying and coercion that drives children to commit suicide. And particularly in close-knit communities that encourage extended families to remain close and depend upon one another, this kind of intolerance ruins lives.

The repercussions of B.S. like this reach well past childhood or the children directly impacted. These teachings are what drives parents to kick their children who appear to be gay, lesbian, bi, or trans from their homes, for instance. The LDS church isn’t alone in this by any means. The Southern Baptists can claim that they love and respect everyone, but when in the same statement about marriage equality they say “Silence in the face of evil is itself evil” they’re saying to every queer or questioning kid growing up in their churches that they way they were born is evil. Which will lead many of them, after years of praying and doing everything in their power to stop feeling the way they do and being who they are to believing they are irredeemable and inherently unlovable. Just as the Catholic church can keep tricking reporters into repeating the claim that the church is “more welcoming to LGBT people” when that welcome is not unlike the parents I talked about earlier—you’re welcome to be told again and again that who you are is inherently disordered and you may only stay so long as you live a miserable, lonely existence constantly denying who you are.

Third: The loss of the Houston Equal Rights Ordinance is not simply a matter of one city. Nor is it as simple as hate and ignorance winning. We need to do some evaluation like this one: Why Houston’s Equal Rights Ordinance Failed 80 if for no other reason that we’ve seen before that the anti-gay folks will reuse arguments that worked once again and again to take rights away. They are going to mount more campaigns just like this one to try to take away protections in jobs, housing, and so on. It isn’t a new tactic, by any means, but it’s one that can be made to work: How The Religious Right Learned To Use Bathrooms As A Weapon Against Justice

And they aren’t just using it to get anti-gay people to vote against us, they are already trying to get us to turn on each other: Homocon Petition: Drop The “T” From LGBT. It’s an anonymous petition. It is being promoted by certain gay republican jerks who have in the past argued against marriage equality and anti-discrimination laws. Scores of books can be written about why those folks actively participate in their own oppression, but make no mistake: this petition is not coming from people who have the well-being and rights of any queer person in mind. It’s called divide and conquer. If they can get us fighting among ourselves, it will be easy to not just stop the advancement of freedom, but to actually turn back the clock.

Don’t be fooled!

Friday Links (holy horsepower, Batman edition)

George Barris in the original Batmobile © 2015 Motor Trend Magazine
George Barris in the original Batmobile © 2015 Motor Trend Magazine (Click to embiggen)
I am a little shocked that it is already November! Which means we are deeper into decorating season, but also that the year is running out!

NaNoWriMo is taking up a lot of my time, so I’m not doing as much online news readying as usual. Anyway, here is a collection of some of the things that I ran across over the course of the week which struck me as worthy of being shared. Sorted into categories with headings so you can skip more easily:

Link of the Week

LOL: James Bond Rents a Car from Stephen Colbert.

This Week in Shaken, Not Stirred

Roger Moore explains How to make the perfect martini.

This Week in Diversity

The Cool Girl Trap: Or, Why Sexism in Tech Isn’t Going Away.

After Voting Rights Lawsuit Changes the System: Historic election: Two Latinos elected to Yakima City Council.

This week in Stupid People

This Is the Laser That Someone Allegedly Pointed at the Captain and Chief Mate of a State Ferry Last Week.

Grown men freaked out by ‘gay’ Twitter hearts – A change from the star icon to a love-heart predictably opened the homophobic floodgates.

This week in Difficult to Classify

TSA screeners can’t detect weapons and they never could.

An Open Letter to Those Who Give Kids Banned Books.

This week in Evil People

U.S. Senate panel probing Valeant, Turing over drug costs.

Notre Dame academic coach fired amid claims she coerced athletes into having sex with her daughter. And not just to have sex, she coerced them into describing the details of the sex to her… and there’s a racial component, and another university employee allegedly helped her drug the athletes…

News for queers and our allies:

The next time someone you know is claiming that trans people are confused or similar, show them this comic.

When My Childhood Bully Hit Me Up On A Gay Dating App. (This is a recurring nightmare… and it has nearly happened…)

Homosexuality in Mainstream Comedy and the Confused, Fascinating Sexual Politics of ‘Partners’.

Gay Men Should Be Ashamed of Slut-Shaming.

Two More Gay Men Attacked At Gunpoint In Dallas, Marking 11 Violent Assaults In Two Months.

Science!

The first giant raptor (Theropoda: Dromaeosauridae) from the Hell Creek Formation. Large raptor fossil with robust, obvious, unmistakable quill knobs!

Salem Witch in Ray Bradbury’s Family Tree.

How a group of neighbors created their own Internet service: Powered by radios in trees, homegrown network serves 50 houses on Orcas Island.

In the 1970s, Scientists Discovered a 2 Billion-Year-Old Nuclear Reactor in West Africa. “…a naturally occurring deposit of uranium where the concentration of uranium-235 had been high enough to trigger a self-sustaining nuclear reaction.”

Man died with ‘tapeworm tumours’.

Britain’s oldest tree appears to be undergoing a sex change after 3,000 years.

Edinburgh astronomers make sunless planet discoveries.

New photo shows the expansive dunes of Saturn’s strange, hazy moon Titan.

The space artist who saw Pluto before Nasa.

Did Neanderthals and sabre-toothed wage battles? Fossil remains reveal the predators lived side-by-side with our ancestors.

Strong placebo response thwarts painkiller trials.

Scientists map source of Northwest’s next big quake.

Slimy mystery: Thousands of worms cover Auburn sidewalk after rainstorm.

Science Fiction, Fantasy and Speculation!

Wired does an extended look at the Hugo issue. As everyone else that I’ve seen sharing this link says, Stay out of the comments! Sci-Fi’s Hugo Awards and the Battle for Pop Culture’s Soul.

Today’s passive aggressive fan mail: reader will not read more of my books because I don’t speak English English as my first language. The author speaks English as his native language, but… Oh! Just got read it, it’s very short and funny!

No, the Kids Aren’t Reading the Classics and Why Would They.

Get Bent – Why Bother? (thanks to Foxraven for the link!)

Author re-reads all of Heinlein in a few months and comments on which things still hold up, which don’t, and why.

The Feminist Horror Author You Need to Read Immediately.

Terry Gilliam Is Not, in Fact, Dead.

Octavia’s Brood: Science Fiction Stories from Social Justice Movements edited by adrienne maree brown and Walidah Imarisha.

This week in Geek

Slightly fewer Americans are reading print books, new survey finds.

Here’s a Global Heatmap of People with Your Last Name.

People were linking to some cool author maps this week. They’re generated via crowdsource. You can improve the author maps and get some recommendations by going here: the global network of discovery.

The 25 Distinct Reasons People “Favorite” Things on Twitter. They can’t count… and their definition of distinct leaves something to be desired…

Culture war news:

Voters Repeal Anti-Discrimination Law in Houston After Hate Campaign Targeting Trans Women Using Public Toilets. “So the haters in Houston argued—successfully—that straight men are terrible. Right? They argued that trans women are actually straight dudes who are attracted to women. So the haters won yesterday by convincing a majority of voters in Houston that straight people suck.”

Another example of how Republicans and the Islamic State have much in common: Isis shuts down women’s clinics in Raqqa to prevent male gynaecologists treating female patients.

Sentenced for drug treatment, young man gets “gay cure” instead, then driven to suicide; Family can’t sue because of Religious Arbitration Clause.

“You girls can’t do that here”: Lesbian couple says cop arrested them for kissing in public.

Mississippi Flag Supporter Allegedly Bombs Wal-Mart After Chain Stops Selling Flag. And once again, because he’s a white american, they aren’t treating it as terrorism, even thought that is exactly what it is!

How should conservative Christians handle a rapidly changing culture?

School Threatens 7-Year-Old With Expulsion for Talking About Her Gay Dad.

Rich Still Handily Winning the Class War.

Why Is The LGBT Movement Struggling To Uphold A Simple Law In Houston?. This was posted just before election day, but Dominic does a great job of outlining why equality lost in Houston.

LDS church to exclude children of same-sex couples from membership.

This Week in the Clown Car

“Douchebag says what?”: Stephen Colbert unloads on CNBC, GOP crybabies.

Dear Ben Carson: Actually, You Are a ‘Homophobe’ If You’re Opposed to Marriage Equality Now. “…if you’re opposed to something that is now a right of every American and has been proven in court — in the federal trial over California’s Proposition 8 — to harm no one, including children, then you do have an irrational fear of homosexuality. And certainly if you’re a medical doctor yourself and you’re opposed to something that the American Medical Association, American Psychological Association and American Psychiatric Association deem normal, natural and healthy and not harmful at all to anyone, then you have an irrational fear of homosexuality. And that is the essence of homophobia – a fear of homosexuality.”

Mike Huckabee Goes “Hunting”.

Ben Carson: Egyptian pyramids were grain stores, not pharaohs’ tombs.

Fox Boots Huckebee & Christie From Next Main Debate, Graham & Pataki Don’t Even Make The Kids Table.

What repulsive swastika retweet tells us about Trump.

Youngest DREAMers Need Not Apply: The Other Troubling Part of Marco Rubio’s DACA Comments.

Rand Paul’s New Book Sells Fewer Than 500 Copies In Two Weeks.

Put gay people to death? Ted Cruz, Bobby Jindal and Mike Huckabee to speak at Iowa “religious liberty” conference led by noxious right-wing radio host.

This week in Other Politics:

The Sad Truth of Our Politics: It’s Basically Turned into a Competition Among Oligarchs to Own Everything.

Larry Lessig’s Campaign Was in Better Shape Than the GOP Undercard Field.

How Democrats Suppress The Vote – Off-year elections have much lower turnout, and Democrats prefer it that way.

Voters Reject LGBT Rights, Health Care for the Poor, and Legalized Marijuana. Well, the Ohio voters rejected a convoluted legalized marijuana monopoly, not legalized marijuana…

Michigan Tea Partiers Fail To Win Back Seats After Fake Gay Sex Scandal.

Bernie Sanders Wants to Ban All New Fossil Fuel Development on Federal Lands.

Fircrest voters decide to lift 90-year-old ban on alcohol sales.

The Push for Legal Marijuana Spreads.

This Week in Police Problems

Hundreds of officers lose licenses over sex misconduct. “sexual misconduct is among the most prevalent type of complaint against law officers”

Massachusetts: Millis police officer Bryan Johnson charged with filing false shooting report that sparked manhunt.

Arkansas: England cop charged in false shooting report.

Illinois: MSNBC’s Chris Hayes Highlights Conservative Media’s Irresponsible Coverage Of Fox Lake Police Officer’s Death.

Illinois Cop Who Killed Himself Tried to Hire Hit Man to Kill Village Administrator.

Farewells:

Melissa Mathison, ‘E.T.’ Screenwriter and Ex-Wife of Harrison Ford, Dies at 65.

Follow up on a past farewell: Robin Williams’s Wife, Susan, Says ‘It Was Not Depression That Killed Robin’ – autopsy revealed that Robin Williams was suffering from Diffuse Lewy Body Dementia, a neurodegenerative disease.

Star Trek visual effects pioneer Howard A. Anderson. Jr. passes away.

Batmobile Creator George Barris Dies at 89. Also the designer of the Munster Koach and a lot of TV an movie cars.

Things I wrote:

It’s that time of year again: NaNoWriMo starts tonight!.

You don’t have to add diversity—just stop erasing it! (part 2).

Ancient Tomes and Living Fossils – how I love sf/f isn’t the only way.

Videos!

Viva La Vida – Postmodern Jukebox Coldplay Cover ft. Puddles Pity Party:

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Weird Things Gay Couples Do:

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Men in Jetpacks Fly Beside Massive Airbus A380 in Spectacular Video:

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Houston’s Equal Rights Ordinance: A Closer Look – Late Night with Seth Meyers:

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Nathan Sykes – Over And Over Again (you might want to grab a tissue):

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Ancient Tomes and Living Fossils – how I love sf/f isn’t the only way

“Kids these days will never know the joys of oil lamps and chamber pots”Jason Sanford set off small internet firestorm with a series of Twitter comments that he then collected on his blog as: The fossilization of science fiction and fantasy literature. Some people were upset because they thought he was implying that the classics of sci fi were garbage, when all he actually said was that younger people are reading, watching, and playing newer works and there’s nothing wrong with that. He’s since added a follow-up to clarify his point which included this important bit of context:

A few years ago I was on a SF/F panel about bringing new readers into the genre. I mentioned that SF needed more gateway novels, at which point the other author on the panel snorted and said we don’t need new gateway novels … the Heinlein juveniles are still perfect.

That is the type of attitude which people should fear because it will kill our genre. But new readers not discovering SF/F through the classic authors you grew up on — that’s nothing to worry about.

His critique was not aimed at the classics themselves, but rather at older fans and pros who belittle younger people who first learned to love science fiction and fantasy by encountering newer works, or who lecture people who aren’t familiar with many works published 70 or more years ago, or gripe that “real” fandom is greying and dying off.

Reading the original post and some of the fallout left me feeling a bit guilty for ways that I have no doubt come across that way myself. I do react with great incredulity when a friend, regardless of age, isn’t familiar with a book, series of books, or movie that I consider a classic, for instance. I try to get people to watch some of the old movies or read the old books that I loved.

It also made me wonder about the series of posts I’ve been doing for Throwback Thursday the last 6+ months, the “more of why I love sf/f” posts. I started those posts as a personal antidote to the sturm und drang over the affair of the melancholy canines. Because I read a lot of sci fi blogs, and because I was determined to read all the Hugo-nominated works before filling out my ballot, I knew I was likely to spend a lot of time being outraged and otherwise upset about things people were saying about some types of sci fi. So I decided it would be a good idea to write a weekly post in which I would only talk about something I loved from the genre. Since I like having a regular deadline, I needed to pick a day, and it occurred to me that if I focused on works that were influential in my formative years, then I could post them on Thursdays and tag them as Throwback Thursdays.

So I gave myself that assignment.

These posts have been about things I loved in science fiction and fantasy. I’ve written about works that spoke to me in important ways when I was a kid. Many times I’ve mentioned how a particular story or movie or series gave me hints that someday, when I wasn’t a closeted queer kid living among anti-science and anti-gay evangelicals, life would get better. None of which is meant to imply that people who aren’t familiar with or don’t like any of the things I’ve written about are any less real fans than I am, nor that there is anything wrong with treasuring different authors or works.

Not that anyone probably has, but I think it’s important to acknowledge that I’m an old white guy, and what I experienced growing up is going to be very different for fans who aren’t guys, or white… or whose teen-age years are much more recent than mine.

It’s also important to realize that a lot of things that we loved when we were younger don’t always hold up when we’re older. Before I started the “more of why I love sf/f” posts, I’d written about reading some books by a favorite author from my teens and early twenties, and how difficult some of her books were for me to read, now. Some are fine, but some of them have definitely not aged well. And I felt really bad for not liking some of them as much as I did when I was younger.

Because I’m doing National Novel Writing Month (my project is to finish the revision on two of my fantasy novels) there will be a lot fewer blog posts of any kind from me. And those “more of why I love sf/f” posts take more time than others of similar length, because I research the work and author in question. Yes, I’m writing about things I loved, but in some of the cases they are books or shows I encountered before my teens, so I want to make certain I’m remembering them correctly.

I will resume the posts after November. And I will probably continue to focus on books and stories from my younger days. I mean, I averaged reading more than seven novels a week through most of middle school, for goodness sake! There is a lot of potential material to write about!

You don’t have to add diversity—just stop erasing it! (part 2)

I wrote recently about why having queer characters in books, particularly science fiction, isn’t about pandering or finding a good reason to include us, but rather simply of matter of not excluding us. The real world has queer people (a lot more than most people think), and there is no good reason that fictional worlds wouldn’t have just as many of us.

There’s an interesting post going around Tumblr that gathered together this series of facts (originally tweeted by Andrew Wheeler @wheeler) about some current or recent works of fiction based on historical characters. The historical facts are verified, I’m not merely repeating. I include a bit more context on each than Wheeler was able to fit in a short series of Twitter posts:

  • Leonardo da Vinci was almost certainly gay, but the series Da Vinci’s Demons portrays him as (barely) bisexual who seems to be exclusively attracted to women.
  • Alexander the Great was gay, and was known to be gay to the extent that the greek historian Plutarch wrote extensively about the moral way Alexander behaved toward the various men he had loved. The great love of Alexander’s life was a man, Hephaestion. When Hephaestion died, Alexander mourned him for months, refusing to eat for days, and nearly killed himself. The only movies that have ever included Hephaestion doesn’t even hint at the relationship, let alone even showing them kiss.
  • Alan Turing, the genius who decrypted Enigma among other things during World War II, has sometimes been described as the greatest gay hero of the modern age. He was convicted of indecency (and forced to take drugs to repress his libido) because he confessed to being in a long term relationship with his boyfriend. In the recent movie which tried to portray him as a hero, he is instead caught with a male prostitute and portrayed as a loner who had no love in his life.
  • The epic love of Achilles and Patroculus is a keystone of the legends of the Trojan war, but in the recent movie Troy they’re portrayed as simply buddies.
  • John Nash, the mathematician, was sexually active with men throughout his life, getting arrested a few times for it. He was married twice, though both relationships were problematic, and it’s unclear how many of the issues in the second marriage were due to his struggles with mental illness as opposed to his frequent same sex dalliances. A Beautiful Mind omits the first marriage and child completely, and also completely erases the same sex liaisons, which due to the arrests, played a significant role in the tragedies of his real life.

This list focuses on men because Wheeler’s point was that television and movie executives are extremely squeamish about showing men being seductive or explicitly romantic or in any way physically intimate with other men. But it isn’t just “Hollywood” that has that problem.

Lots of people cite the Marvel Comics character Deadpool as an example of a bisexual character. The creators of the character frequently claim that he is bisexual, but the kindest way you can describe those claims is that they are being very bad writers by telling us rather than showing. The more accurate description is that it is a queer-baiting lie. Oh, yes, Deadpool makes all sorts of sexual jokes toward other men, and he seems to be particularly obsessed with Spiderman, but that is all we ever see in the stories: jokes. Deadpool has never ever been shown actually in a relationship with another man. He has had a lot of romantic relationships with women in the comics; loves of his life that have died tragically and so forth, but not one single man.

None.

That isn’t diversity, that’s queer-baiting.

Slightly better is DC Comic’s John Constantine, who in the comics had at least one significant same sex romantic relationship (in additional to several opposite sex romances), and said same sex relationship was integral to the plot of one of the longer story arcs. He’s also been portrayed flirting with men, seducing other men, and so forth. All well and good. Until we get to the television series (which, alas, was canceled last year after only 13 episodes), where there isn’t even a hint of his bisexuality, and the producers and writers said off-screen that he was not bisexual.

And don’t get me started on the epic amount of queer-baiting the creator and producer of the Teen Wolf television series has been doing for six years!

So, to sum up: when we call for diversity in books and movies and television shows, we aren’t asking to be pandered to. We aren’t asking you to shoehorn something into the story. We’re asking you to be realistic. We’re asking you to write believable stories.

Appendix: This blog post, in which a writer explains why he is re-writing some really old sci fi stories by swapping genders and such as his NaNoWriMo project provides some other good points about erasure in fiction: Get Bent – Why Bother?

It’s that time of year again: NaNoWriMo starts tonight!

I'm participating in NaNoWriMo, again!
I’m participating in NaNoWriMo, again!
As I’ve mentioned several times, I’m participating in National Novel Writing Month (NaNoWriMo) once more. But I realized that in the several posts leading up to this week, I haven’t explained what it is. So, first, from the official website:

National Novel Writing Month (NaNoWriMo) is a fun, seat-of-your-pants approach to creative writing.

On November 1, participants begin working towards the goal of writing a 50,000-word novel by 11:59 PM on November 30.

There are rules, but I’ve always participated as a Rebel. But last year they dropped the one rule that kept making me a rebel.

  • Write one 50,000-word (or longer!) novel, between November 1 and November 30.
  • Start from scratch.
  • Write a novel. We define a novel as a lengthy work of fiction.
  • Be the sole author of your novel.
  • Write more than one word repeated 50,000 times.

It used to be that you were supposed to begin with a total blank page (or empty word processor file) and not type any words of the actual novel before November 1. Now the new rule is that you only count the words you actually write during November in your total. So since I was usually working on finishing or revising an existing piece, I was a rebel.

Now I’m not. Except that I still feel like a rebel, dang it! I’m just a rebel who happens to be following the rules this time.

I meant to post this earlier in the week, but kept getting caught up in other things. One of the coolest things about NaNoWriMo the last few years is that the makers of Scrivener, which is in my not-so-humble opinion the best writing software out there, make a special trial version available free for the duration of NaNoWriMo plus seven days. So if, at the end of the month, you decide you don’t want to buy the software, you can still export your work to a format that is readable by ordinary word processors.

You can download this special trial and a custom NaNoWriMo Novel template here.

The NaNoWriMo template is like the ordinary novel template, except that it contains links to free video tutorials, and it contains a macro that will output you novel in a scramble plain text form if you are paranoid about uploading your piece to the word-count verifying function later in the month.

Scrivener is not merely a word processor. The folks who make it (and it’s a very tiny company of, last time I checked, three people) describe it as a complete writing studio, or a content generation system. Scrivener has projects rather than single files. you can add scenes or chapters, move them around, view them in a summary mode where they look like index cards, and so on. Each project also has a research binder where you can save all your notes and scribblings and other supporting information. It’s all kept in the project, but won’t appear in the final product when you publish the manuscript in all the supported formats (include epub, of course).

One of my favorite features is that, from within the Research binder, you can select an “Import web page” function. Paste the URL of the page in question, and Scrivener will go out, copy all the text, images, links and so forth, and make it a “page” in the research binder or your project file. It’s not a link, it’s a complete copy. So if the web page goes away, you still have all the information from the page. This is really handy when you’re doing research on the web.

Scrivener is an awesome program that I’ve been using for years, and on top of all this content management and publishing functionality, it only costs US$45. That’s full price. If you download the NaNoWriMo trial (either Windows or Mac version) and set up a NaNoWriMo account, at the end of the month you can buy it for a 20% discount, no matter whether you finished your 50,000 words or not.

If, however, you do finish the 50,000 words and upload and get verified, they’ll send you a code that lets you buy Scrivener at half price. When I first started using the older version a few years ago, after just a week of the free trial I decided that the full price was a bargain, and I’ve never regretted it.

I’ve only used the Mac version. I have a couple of friends who regularly use the Windows version and they like it a lot. I should also mention that I have at least two friends who use both, and they both agree that the Windows version isn’t quite as slick as the Mac version. But the company is only a handful of people, so I can understand. Also, I know that the Mac version leverages a lot of functionality which Apple bakes into the operating system which simply isn’t there in the Windows OS (just because the companies have different philosophies on how to do things).

I really love Scrivener. They don’t yet have an iOS version, but I use a function they have to synch a project to an external folder, and I synchronize it to Dropbox (it will also sync to iCloud drive, and Copy and a lot of other cloud services), and then I edit individual scenes on my iPad using a word processor for iOS called Textilus. There are a lot of other word processors for iOS, and if you already have one, if it can read RTF files, you can do this, too.

There are some other special offers for NaNoWriMo participants, including two other writing tools I’ve never used: Ulysses (Mac and iOS) and Storyist (Mac, iPad, iPhone). There are trial versions available of the Mac versions, and discounts offered after completing NaNoWriMo.

The only tool other than Scrivener on the sponsor offers page that I’ve used is Aeon Timeline, which I have found very useful for charting out the events of the world I have created for my series of fantasy novels.

Anyway, whether you’re doing NaNoWriMo or not, if you’re a writer, I can’t recommend Scrivener enough. You can get the NaNoWriMo trial version at the link I shared above, or if you don’t want to be bothered with NaNoWriMo, but the tool sounds interesting, their ordinary 30-day trial version is here.

Either way, let’s get writing!

Friday Links (leopard and cub edition)

A still from a World Wildlife Fund hidden camera. © World Wildlife Fund (Click to embiggen)
A still from a World Wildlife Fund hidden camera. © World Wildlife Fund (Click to embiggen)
It’s already the fourth Friday October!? It’s the month of pumpkins and falling leaves and spooks and costumes! It is also Gay History Month

And tomorrow night is HALLOWEEN!!!

Once again, I’m really, really, really glad that the weekend is upon us! Between throwing my back out last weekend and crazy deadlines converging at work, I’m wrung out!

Anyway, here is a collection of some of the things that I ran across over the course of the week which struck me as worthy of being shared. Sorted into categories with headings so you can skip more easily:

Link of the Week

Elusive Himalayan snow leopard and cub inspect camera.

This Week in Shaken, Not Stirred

The Economist quantifies the 24 James Bond movies: everything from box office results to martinis consumed.

This Week in Diversity

“Where are you really from?”.

A is for (A)sexual – What my identity means to me, and the 6 questions about asexuality I get asked the most often.

What the row over banning Germaine Greer is really about.

GLAAD Report: LGBT Representation on TV Is Up, But Still Very White.

Funny Is Funny: Homophobia, Misogyny and the Lack of Diversity in Comedy.

This week in People Doing Good Things

HIGH SCHOOL STUDENTS SERVE AS PALLBEARERS FOR HOMELESS VETERANS WITHOUT LOVED ONES. (Thanks to Foxraven for the link)

Dateless, Singled Out, And Not Taking It Anymore.

A D.C. cop tried to break up a group of teens. It ended in this impressive dance-off.

This week in Topics Most People Can’t Be Rational About

The Concealed-Carry Fantasy.

This week in Difficult to Classify

A true 12’s response to a fair-weather Seattle Seahawks fan – ‘We don’t need you’.

4 Things They Didn’t Teach You in Sex Ed.

Library Board Votes Against New Logo and Name Change. Here’s What Happened at the Board Meeting.

This week in Evil Greedy People

How an industry of ‘Amazon entrepreneurs’ pulled off the Internet’s craftiest catfishing scheme.

Cracked! American Egg Board CEO Resigns Over Eggless Mayo Scandal.

Happy News!

In October at least, America runs on pumpkin.

Science!

Watch this video: On a dry lakebed in Nevada, a group of friends build the first scale model of the solar system with complete planetary orbits: a true illustration of our place in the universe.

Snow leopards rebounding in Afghanistan amid concerns the species are verge of extinction.

Drug engineered from bananas shows promise in fighting deadly viruses.

The Science of Denial.

Agriculture was independently invented at least 11 times on four continents – not just in the Middle East. It’s time to rethink how modern civilisation took root.

And now the Pluto family portrait is complete.

Puget Sound orcas welcome sixth baby born to endangered pods this year.

Six-inch long teeth of ancient Megalodon shark found on North Carolina beach.

Dinosaurs are extinct, but the business of smuggling them is thriving.

Ancient Pterosaur Used Four Huge Fangs To Snack On Ancient Crocodiles.

September blew away the margin for Earth’s warmest month on record.

Ancient super-predators could take down a mammoth.

First humans in Northern North America: 11,500-year-old baby fossils show humans ‘paused’ as they spread across the globe.

Did ancient animals REGROW their limbs? Fossils suggest the ability to regenerate was widespread 300 million years ago.

Suspended USDA researcher alleges agency tried to block his research into harmful effects of pesticides on bees, butterflies.

Hungry Baby Otter Found on California Beach Is Recovering.

Einstein Is Right About General Relativity — Again.

A Lack of Animal Poop Is Causing a New Environmental Problem.

Astronomers make a remarkable discovery in the center of the Milky Way.

Before-and-after pictures show how climate change is destroying the Earth.

Clouded Leopards Threatened by Sudden Increase in Poaching and Live Trade.

Science Fiction, Fantasy and Speculation!

Ash vs. Evil Dead Prep: Your Guide to the Evil Dead Franchise.

Starz Renews ‘Ash vs. Evil Dead’ Ahead of Premiere.

The Case For Queer Superhero Films.

LE GUIN’S ANARCHIST AESTHETICS.

25 Years Later, ‘Darkman’ Remains the First Horror Genre-Driven Superhero Film.

Why ‘The Flash’ And ‘Arrow’ Are What Young Science Nerds Have Been Looking For.

This week in Writing

Some Writing Advice That’s Mostly Useless (And Why).

Find the Conflict: Unblocking (or Actually Planning!) your NaNoWriMo Novel.

Post on tools useful in planning the first draft of a novel.

Zadie Smith’s 10 Rules of Writing.

Never quote a rock lyric in a book unless you’re rich.

3 Steps to Rev Up Your Writing Momentum.

Culture war news:

Remember the Guy Who Gave His Employees a $70,000 Minimum Wage? Here’s What Happened Next.

Florida’s New Anti-Gay, Anti-Woman Bill May Be the Most Malicious Yet.

All Republicans agree: America is a hellhole.

This Hacker is Destroying Racist and Homophobic Websites One by One.

When Bigots Freaked Out About Campbell’s Ad With Gay Dads, This Man Had A Brilliant Response.

How Utah’s Anti-Gay Birth-Certificate Law Got Crushed in Court.

As the World Congress of Families, an international extremist group, meets in Salt Lake City, The Daily Beast goes undercover to peel back the curtain.

This Week in the Clown Car

Cruz, Huckabee And Jindal Will Join Pastor Who Wants Gays Put To Death.

Jeb Bush’s campaign continues to freefall.

Ben Carson says as ‘volatile’ teen he ‘went after people with hammers’ and tried to stab someone. Keep in mind: he brought this up as an attempt to prove that he’s got the passion and energy to run a full presidential campaign. What?

These GOP Candidates Were Born Into Privilege But Want You To Think Otherwise.

Trump to Iowa Voters: ‘Get Your – in Gear!’.

Ted Cruz’s damaging shutdown delusion.

No, there is no constitutional problem with an all-Florida presidential ticket. The headline isn’t exactly accurate. There will be issues, but the article is correct that it isn’t technically unconstitutional. Given how bitchy Rubio and Bush got with each other at the debate, I suspect it isn’t going to be an issue.

‘Captain Underpants’ banned from school book fair over gay character.

New Bill Would Allow Doctors to Refuse to Treat Women and Gay People.

Enjoy your honeymoon while it lasts, Marco Rubio: Why the GOP’s star debater still isn’t ready for primetime.

Huckabee Seems to Think We Can cure Cancer, Diabetes, Alzheimers, and Heart Disease with Executive Order.

At debate, Ben Carson says he has no connection to Mannatech.

This week in Other Politics:

The next president should break up some big companies.

Sorry Joe Biden, But the Republicans ARE Our Enemies. “…Republicans are our enemies simply because they’d decided we are their enemies, targeting our rights, our livelihoods and our families”

Former Republican House Speaker Hastert Sentences to Six Years After Pleading Guilty to Lying to FBI About Paying Hush Money to Student He Sexually Molested as a High School Wrestling Coach.

How Dennis Hastert’s sex abuse scandal led to him pleading guilty to a banking crime.

Wisconsin Governor Signs Bill Limiting Political Corruption Inquiries.

What in the world is a ‘Freedom Foyer’?

Ryan Makes Immigration Reform Deal With Freedom Caucus Member.

The One Guy Who Can Fix Politics Is the One Guy Democrats Won’t Let You Hear About.

In first, Democratic hopefuls fight to be most pro-LGBT.

Charles Koch’s Frankenstein problem: He created the Tea Party monster — and now he’s horrified with the results.

This Week in Racism

Anonymous Vows To Unhood 1,000 Ku Klux Klan Members.

Death threats and civil complaints after People of Color Yoga controversy.

The Unbearable Whiteness of Pro-Lifers and Pundits.

This Week in Police Brutality

White America will ignore this video: The hideous & predictable violence of our schools, our legal system, our society. For the record: the actual video was shared with me on Twitter, Tumblr, and Facebook at least four dozen times before this particular article went by, and it was white people who were sharing it, so, um… what?

South Carolina Deputy Ben Fields Fired After Body Slamming Student [VIDEO].

Video Shows NYPD Officer Tackling, Choking, and Pepper-spraying a Skateboarde.

This Week in Misogyny

This Is Not a Game: How SXSW Turned GamerGate Abuse Into a Spectator Sport.

How SXSW really, really blew it.

SXSW canceled two panels after threats — but did nothing when female panelists asked about harassment.

I Was on One of Those Canceled SXSW Panels – Here is what went down.

News for queers and our allies:

Pop Matters does a retrospective on the album that, 25 years ago, contains the most poignant, heart-wrenching song about the AIDS epidemic: All The People I Was Kissing, Some Are Here And Some Are Missing.

I am outside, and I am wearing a dress. This is a new experience, wearing a dress in public.

How The Words “I Dare You” Changed My Life Forever.

Nasty Baby Is the Gay Film We’ve Been Waiting a Decade For.

Finding Gay Baby Jail.

Celebrating Gay Manhood.

‘We still love each other’: meet the man who came out after 20 years of marriage.

The Trope of the Evil Television Bisexual.

Gus Kenworthy Responded To This Idiotic Gay Relationship Question Perfectly.

Sylvia Rivera becomes first trans American to have portrait in the Smithsonian.

Dallas Police Respond To String Of Violent Attacks Targeting Gay Community – VIDEO.

Gay North Carolina high school football player was depressed despite ‘having it all’.

Rainbow Smoke and Glittering Mirrors: How not to tackle homophobia.

‘50s Hollywood Sex Symbol Tab Hunter is still a Young Love at 84.

Farewells:

Maureen O’Hara, spirited movie star, dies at 95.

Things I wrote:

Just call me Mr. Chicken.

If you never get started….

What you like, what other people like….

Storms, Brains, and Reanimated Flesh – more of why I love sf/f.

Weekend Update 10/24/2015: Bigot Backpedals, Others Sued.

Videos!

Music as a Language: Victor Wooten at TEDxGabriolaIsland (thanks to Deeptriviality for the link):

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Of Monsters And Men – Thousand Eyes (Official Lyric Video):

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Pet Shop Boys – Being Boring 1990 HD ( 25 years ago this week… ):

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NERVO feat. Kylie Minogue, Jake Shears & Nile Rodgers – The Other Boys (Official Video):

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I Put A Spell On You – Bette Midler – Hocus Pocus 1993 – HD edited:

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The Best Gay (ish) Halloween Flicks:

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Anything Can Happen On Halloween:

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Storms, Brains, and Reanimated Flesh – more of why I love sf/f

The creature meets the innocent girl... © Universal Pictures
The creature meets the innocent girl… © Universal Pictures (Click to embiggen)

I don’t remember when I first saw the 1931 film Frankenstein, directed by James Whale. I also can’t remember a time when I didn’t know the basic story of Frankenstein. I don’t know for sure what my first exposure was to the myth. I remember watching more than one of the Universal Studios Frankenstein movies with my mom when I was young. I remember one particular time watching it with my mom and my sister, my sister was maybe four or five years old and kept asking questions. I was getting impatient, and Mom told me I had been exactly the same way when I had been my sister’s age.

What I do remember, very clearly, is that I always felt sorry for the monster… Continue reading Storms, Brains, and Reanimated Flesh – more of why I love sf/f

What you like, what other people like…

How to be an adult: eat what you like to eat, don't eat what you don't like, and mind your own damn business about what other people eat.
How to be an adult…(Click to embiggen)
I was rather amazed at a conversation that went past one of my social media streams: one person said, “What? You mean candy corn is supposed to look like real corn???” and another said, “I had no idea! Why had no one ever told me?” and a third said, “This changes everything I thought I knew!” And all three were people who said they loved candy corn and always had.

I was too busy being flabbergasted that someone who was smart enough to operate a keyboard, was apparently an adult, had survived many years of having to defend their love of this strangely polarizing candy, had never realized that the little candies are essentially caricatures of kernals of corn (sweet corn, maize, et cetera). Seriously? How can you never at least ask, “Why is it called ‘candy corn’?”

mystery-seed-104-2Okay, to be fair, I realize that there are people who go through life without ever seeing seed corn or feed corn. They may have seen corn on the cob and actually eaten it, but otherwise the only time they’ve seen corn is processed corn kernels cut-off the cob by a machine, then canned or frozen before being cooked and served. And those cut kernels don’t look like a full kernal of corn. It’s similar to the time when I was talking to someone about popcorn and discovered that they had never realized that the seed in popcorn were actual dried corn, the same plant (though a different cultivar or subspecies) as is canned and sold as corn. Or the time that I had to explain to someone what the phrase “seed corn” meant—they had never known that the vegetable they were eating were actually the seeds of the corn plant!

I don’t know what it is about candy corn that gets some people up in arms. I’m not saying that I don’t understand that some people like it and some don’t. What I don’t understand is why some people dislike it so much that they make other people feel defensive about liking candy corn.

I don’t happen to be one of the great fans of the candy. I don’t dislike it, but it doesn’t really do anything for me. When I was a kid, I liked the color and the shininess of the candy. It probably helped that it was a seasonal thing that was only available around Halloween time. But I would gladly let me sister eat nearly all of it herself and not feel that I was losing out. Yes, that means one of my sisters is one of those people who absolutely adore candy corn.

I sometimes take comfort in that fact that people can get militant about something like candy. Because when I read about things like this: Hate group (World Congress of Families) looks to criminalize gays on global scale my initial reaction is a combination of fear and depression. Then I realize that a lot of their supporters are just being as irrational as the folks who hate on candy corn. Which isn’t to say that none of this hatred is real: Dallas Police Seek Public’s Help In Solving String of Brutal Anti-Gay Attacks or Trans Woman Run Over With SUV In Possible Hate Crime Is 17th Murdered This Year or Study finds LGBT people not reporting hate crimes because they happen so frequently.

The kind of irrationality that makes people trash others over candy is part of the reason that folks either stand by silently while nutjobs at the World Conference of Families spout off their hate, or why people can look at death and rape threats hurled about by GamerGaters and make the ridiculous claims that there are two sides to the argument.

Hint: if a group is resorting to death threats, rape threats, doxing, and bomb threats, that isn’t an argument. It is a crime. That “side” is the perpetrator. Period. The other “side” are victims. Period. If you claim that it is a “side” then you are an accessory after the fact to a crime. Period.

And you’re being ridiculous and childish. As childish as someone getting angry at people over a candy preference.

And it’s so silly. It isn’t like we’re talking about something truly important.