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I've loved reading for as long as I can remember. I write fantasy, science fiction, mystery, and nonfiction. For more than 20 years I edited and published an anthropomorphic sci-fi/space opera literary fanzine. I attend and work on the staff for several anthropormorphics, anime, and science fiction conventions. I live near Seattle with my wonderful husband, still completely amazed that he puts up with me at all.

Have a very merry…

Happy Christmas! Blessed Yul! Happy Hogswatch! Joyous Kwanza! Festive Festivus! Feliz Navidad! God Jul! Mele Kalikimaka me ka Hauʻoli Makahiki Hou! Beannachtaí na Nollag! Buon Natale! Priecīgus Ziemassvētkus un laimīgu Jauno gadu! Felix Dies Nativitatus! Keep Saturn in Saturnalia!

…and bless us, every one!

Muddle through somehow

Sometimes the universe decides to remind us that people have a tremendous capacity to love.

I mentioned, as part of yesterday’s post, some of the past and current difficulties I’ve had with some family members—specifically the ongoing sticking points of me being a gay man raised by a bunch of fundamentalist evangelicals. So, during my day trip to Mom’s and to visit at least some relatives near her, several people decided to tell me how much they love Michael.

Keep in mind that none of these relatives know this blog exists, and one of them can’t even “work the google” without the help of their 12-year-old… Continue reading Muddle through somehow

A holly, jolly time

We did a bit of decorating before people arrived at the hotel room for the party.
We did a bit of decorating before people arrived at the hotel room for the party.
On a Saturday in December, 1985, a group including myself, Mark, Keith, Alan, Joe, Julie (and possibly a few others), got together for a small Christmas celebration before those of us who were college students took our various paths toward home for the holidays. And just about every December since then, I’ve attended a holiday celebratory gathering of friends which included several of the people from that one get-together 29 years ago. The party size has varied a bit over the years, a few times being as small as the first gathering, and several times consisting of several dozen people. Usually the party has been hosted at someone’s home, with the two variables of house size and attendance always making it a bit of a gamble as to how crowded it would be… Continue reading A holly, jolly time

Decking those halls, part 2

303277495_morewaronchristmas_answer_3_xlargeDecorating the house always goes in phases. This year complicated first by me having some bad gout at the end of November and a few days into December (just before my doctor agreed that we should treat this more aggressively, so now I’m on meds for it), second by knowing that the front door was going to be replaced (so I didn’t want to put up wreaths), third by the theft of some outdoor lights, fourth because when I’m doing Christmas shopping I always find new things that fit the theme…

Merry Las Vegas!
Merry Las Vegas!
Also, my husband had several ornaments he’d ordered to surprise me with. One of which was the present from him that I opened at the annual giant holiday party with friends. It’s definitely in keeping with the Vegas theme of this year’s tree. Before the party, he had expressed some anxiety about the present. I interpreted it that he wasn’t sure he had grabbed the right box (since once they’re wrapped you sometimes forget which thing is in which box). Then after the party, and after we’d cleaned up the hotel room and returned home, he asked if I wanted to open another present. Because the present at the party had been the glitter-festooned Las Vegas sign, I thought he was hinting that another present under the tree was another ornament, and I might want it up on the tree for a few days before Christmas.

I had a little more than half of all the presents wrapped when I stopped last Friday to sleep for a bit...
I had a little more than half of all the presents wrapped when I stopped last Friday to sleep for a bit…
It turned out he was worried that I would think, somehow, that the ornament wasn’t much of a gift. Which is silly. First, any gift that’s sincerely given is wonderful. That’s the whole point. But the bigger issue, for me, is my hubby giving me an ornament. Our first Christmas living together, I was trying to plot out what to do with the tree theme. It was the second Christmas after the death of my first husband, Ray. Ray had loved Christmas even more than me, which is saying quite a lot. And he had chosen a color scheme for the next Christmas, which I hadn’t used (since I barely did any decorating the first year after he died), but he’d only gotten so far as picking colors and buying some ornaments in those colors at the previous year’s after-Christmas sales.

Some of the retro and glittery ornaments.
Some of the retro and glittery ornaments.
So I had colors, and some ornaments, but I was having trouble figuring out what to do with them. Whenever I brought it up to Michael, he barely replied. I wasn’t completely sure why. I eventually confessed that his lack of response was stressing me out a bit. It turned out that given his previous experiences with Christmas—him being a gay pagan growing up in rural Oklahoma surrounded by bible-thumpers—whenever I mentioned Christmas decoration, he had visions of manger scenes and angels and little baby Jesus’ everywhere. Which made him feel uncomfortable, to say the least. Whereas, the entire reason I was trying to get some opinions out of him was because it was his home, too, and I didn’t want to make him live with stuff he didn’t like.

Somehow, despite all the conversations we’d had about my own bad experiences being rejected by the church family I’d grown up with, and my love of science and so forth, it hadn’t quite sunk in with him that when I said “Christmas” I merely meant bright lights and ho-ho-ho and jingle bells.

So our first Christmas tree together was a Solstice tree in burgundy and silver. A color combination that we used to portray a slightly non-traditional night sky to commemorate the longest night in the year. He transformed from an unenthusiastic non-participant to a silver-spraypaint and hot-glue gun wielding fiend. He made scores of silver moon and star ornaments to hang on the tree. He help me make an enormous silver crescent moon to hang on the wall. We were finding moon and star decorations.

And even though he has been a very active participant in all of the years since (coming up with some of the best themes—Christmas From the Future!, Gaslight/Steampunk Christmas, the Sun Will Come Back, My Little Pony—I still remember that initial reluctance. And I recognize that I can get more than a little crazy about the decorating. It can’t be easy living with me when I’m in the middle of stressing out because the lights don’t look right and I’ve unwound and rewound the strings on the tree three times, now!

Our crazy 2014 Vegas/Cocktail Christmas tree...
Our crazy 2014 Vegas/Cocktail Christmas tree…
So any contributions he makes I take as an extra special gift. He’s enabling my wild, irrational impulses. He’s putting up with me transforming the house into a tacky, light-invested merry extravaganza.

So I love the glittery Vegas ornament. It’s perfect!

Weekend Update

I didn’t post as often as usual during November because of NaNoWriMo, and then I was immediately struggling with this year’s Ghost Story (since I read an original Christmas Ghost Story every year at our annual Holiday Party), so I haven’t been posting much other than Friday Links since October. And I’m not going to change that much with this post, which is going to be a few more links related to stories I’ve linked to in recent Friday links.

I’ve posted before about the Salvation Army’s claims that they aren’t a homophobic organization. Well: Here’s The Internal Document The Salvation Army Doesn’t Want You To See.

Technically, this ought to have been among Friday’s links, since the final episode of the Colbert Report was Thursday night, but I didn’t watch the episode until Friday, and I don’t know if the video of the finale was available until Friday afternoon, anyway: See Stephen Colbert’s Epic, Star-Studded Farewell Sing-Along.

Several of us who have been watching the Supreme Court’s response to the marriage equality cases wondered what would happen if a case in a Circuit covered by either Justice Thomas or Scalia came up. Contrary to tradition, the last several times that the full court has refused to grant a stay on a ruling against a same-sex marriage ban, the order has mentioned that Scalia and Thomas wanted to grant the stay. So, when a case came directly to one of them, we didn’t know if that Justice would grant a stay, or if they would refer the request to the full court. Friday afternoon we found out: SUPREME COURT DENIES STAY REQUEST IN FLORIDA GAY MARRIAGE CASE, MARRIAGE EQUALITY SET TO BEGIN JANUARY 5.

People are losing interest in donating to anti-gay causes: Bigotry doesn’t pay: North Carolina anti-gay group $15,000 in debt.

I linked earlier to stories about the Michigan House passing a “License to Discriminate” bill, and many feared the Republican-controlled Senate and Republican Governor would move the law forward. But: Michigan Legislature Ends Year Without the Senate Passing the Right to Discriminate Bill.

The “19 and Counting” family, have lended their show, their fame, their money, and their voices to various rallies and events for the repeal of a gay-rights law, have been claiming to be the victims of discrimination simply because gay people and friends and family of gay people object to their political activities that actually harm gay people. One family member went on an anti-gay radio show and: Audio: Josh Duggar defends anti-gay discrimination, invalidates own point.

Friday Links (All I Want for Christmas edition)!

Santa explains how to explain gay people to kids.
Why are flying reindeer less confusing than people who belief differently than you?
It’s Friday! The third Friday in December. The third! I’m hosting a big party tomorrow and don’t have all the shopping or baking done, yet! I’m doooooooooomed!

Anyway, here is a collection of news and other things that I ran across over the course of the week which struck me as worthy of being shared:

Christian right’s vile PR sham: Why their bizarre films are backfiring on them. Delving into why the fear and false persecution narrative underlying fundamentalism prevents them from knowing how to tell an interesting story.

HILARIOUS: Model from ‘ex-gay’ twins billboard is ‘out, proud gay man,’ not a twin.

Let’s Say Goodbye To ‘White Collar’ With The Best Shirtless Matt Bomer Moments, In GIFs!

Do Pacific Northwesterners Have An Accent?

Gay W. Virginia high school soccer player comes out by dancing with homecoming king.

“Rape Exceptionalism” and Protecting Law Students from “Triggers”. And this is a problem because… victims of sexual assault actually need lawyers, prosecutors, and judges who are familiar with the relevant law.

“The Messier 67 Mystery” –Is Our Solar System an Orphan from a Distant Star Cluster?

New Family Tree Illuminates ‘Big Bang’ in Bird Evolution After Dinosaur Extinction.

Genes that leap from one species to another are more common than we thought. Does this shake up the tree of life?

Stephen Colbert Is Dead. Long Live Stephen Colbert.

Top 10 Things to Love About Letterman’s Top Ten Lists.

The cute rolling ball droid in the new Star Wars is a real robot not CGI.

News Corpse eBook ‘Fox Nation vs. Reality’ Reviewed By Wonkette.

Seattle’s unbelievable transportation megaproject fustercluck.

INDIANA METHODIST CHURCH TO CLOSE AFTER FIRING GAY CHORAL DIRECTOR – VIDEO.

Eartha Kitt – Nothin’ for Christmas:

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Every year since 1986, David Letterman has invited Darlene Love to perform on the last show of the year before Christmas. Every year, she sings “Christmas (Baby Please Come Home),” her Phil Spector-produced 1963 Christmas classic. Every year, Paul Shaffer and a sprawling cast of musicians backs her up. Next May, Letterman will retire from late-night TV, which means that when Love appears on Friday’s show to sing “Christmas (Baby Please Come Home),” it’ll be the last time singing it on Letterman’s show.

Here is a super-cut Best of Darlene Love Singing “Christmas (Baby Please Come Home)” on David Letterman:

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The Ramones – Merry Christmas (I Don’t Want To Fight Tonight):

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Billy Idol – Jingle Bell Rock:

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Mariah Carey – All I Want For Christmas Is You:

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Wham! – Last Christmas:

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Robbie Williams – So This Is Christmas:

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Andy Williams – The Most Wonderful Time Of The Year (From The Andy Williams Show):

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The Muppets ** It’s The Most Wonderful Time Of The Year ** Xmas@Rockefeller Center:

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The Muppets sing Jingle Bell Rock from “Muppet Family Christmas”:

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The Muppets: Ringing of the Bells:

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Doctor Who in Dominoes:

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All I Want For Christmas Is You – Christmas Charity Single – Oxford A capella group Out of the Blue:

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Petty theft

I was taking some trash out while getting ready for work, and noticed that one of the solar lights was knocked over and somewhat dis-assembled in one flower bed. Then I noticed one of the heavy duty extension cords was laying among the parts of the solar light, unplugged. For a second I was trying to figure out how someone would have run through that section of the yard. It’s not at a space where one would cross trying to take a shortcut. The concrete steps and steel rail are in the way for any sort of path that includes it.

Then I finally realized that one of the outdoor light sets was gone. Specifically the four lights that look like giant old-fashioned outdoor bulbs. Each was on a stake so they stand up, a red, green, yellow, and blue light. I had them spread across the front edge of the flower bed, completing the line from the snowman to the porch.

If you yanked up the four lights, making sure to get the easily-detached stakes off the bottom of each, pulling the plug out would have pulled up the extension power strip, and the second extension cord that led up to the icicle lights along the eave. And I assume that the process of disconnecting cables knocked over the solar light.

It’s irritating. Petty theft always is. It’s not that the lights were that expensive. I found myself being more irritated at having to get the extension cords back in place than at the loss. At least at the moment. I know when I come home from work and I can see the “gap” in my yard display because those lights aren’t there, I’ll get annoyed again. And even if I go buy something to replace it, at least some of the times that I look at the new display I’ll have a tinge of irritation as I recall the theft.

I remember a similar incident years ago. Ray was still alive, and he found these very silly garden pinwheels that had little cartoon tiger faces, and the blades that spun in the wind were tiger striped. The flowers weren’t very high, and he had decided we needed something in that bed to give it color. Not to mention that he really liked tigers. The pinwheels lasted a couple of days. I was at work, Ray said he was on his way out for an errand and he paused to spin one of the pinwheels by hand before getting into the car. He came back an hour or so later, and they were all gone.

He was very upset.

I wanted to go buy new ones, but he figured whoever stole them must be someone who walked by the place on a regular basis and just decided they wanted them. His reasoning was if we put more out right away, they’d just get stolen again. I don’t think the expense was what upset him so much, because my recollection was they they were very cheap. But there was definitely a feeling of violation. Probably worse precisely because they were cartoon tigers, and they brought out his inner child.

Whenever I find things like the purple and green metal pinwheel I bought last summer, or the solar lights, or the Christmas lights—I always have a twinge of emotion related to those tiger pinwheels. Angst or anxiety both feel a little too strong to describe the feeling. It’s just a hint of a fret about how I might feel if whatever it is gets stolen.

Sometimes I decide that I don’t want to risk it. If the object is expensive enough that I’ll be angry about the price, for instance. Or if it’s something that evokes a strong emotional response as soon as I see it.

But there’s always a little bit of defiance, too. I don’t want to let an a—hole dictate my actions. If I stop putting decorations out because this one jerk stole four cheap light-up decorations, if I let the actions of the occasional prick change me, then that’s another little surrender to the forces of darkness. I refuse to respond to petty theft by becoming a paranoid git saying “bah humbug” to the world.

Because it is petty. And being the sort of prick who steals novelty lights (or pinwheels) out of someone’s front yard is its own punishment, in the long run. The sort of person who stoops to that sort of theft tends to stomp all over the feelings of other people in their lives, too, which is a sure way to breed contempt.

So, the rest of the lights will stay up, and I very well may put out more, if I find something appropriate. Because the proper response to any assertion of the powers of darkness is always to light at least one small candle.

Friday Links (rest ye merry edition)!

It’s Friday! Already the second Friday in December. Only a few more to go and then there will be no more. Before we reach that point, Christmas day will be upon us, and I feel so unprepared!

Anyway, here is a collection of news and other things that I ran across over the course of the week which struck me as worthy of being shared:

Joyce Brabner’s ‘Second Avenue Caper: When Goodfellas, Divas, And Dealers Plotted Against The Plague’: Book Review.

Let’s Stop Making Jokes About Furries While Discussing That Recent Terrorist Attack on Furries.

“I won’t be a weapon anymore,” says former symbol of ex-gay movement.

Why Evangelical Christians Oppose Obamacare and Civil Rights.

The dangerous myth at the heart of conservative ideology.

FBI Understates Hate-Motivated Attacks on Transgender People.

Marriage equality in N.C. grows LGBT wedding professionals’ businesses.

Michigan House Passes Bill Allowing EMTs To Refuse Gay People.

2 Futures Can Explain Time’s Mysterious Past.

Gigantic Cambrian Shrimplike Creature Unearthed in Greenland.

Begun The Christmas Tree War Has. Fight over artificial vs cut live trees has been raging for over 100 years.

Obama’s Approval Rating Is in the Tank Because Americans Are Being Lied To.

Shonda Rhimes Delivered The Most Inspiring, Badass Speech. “How many women had to hit that glass before the first crack appeared?”

HARPERCOLLINS REFUSES TO PUBLISH BOOK UNTIL AUTHOR RENOUNCES GAY DAUGHTER.

Anti-gay N.C. church members indicted on felony kidnapping, assault of gay man.

Bobby Jindal’s Prayer Rally Materials Blame Gays & Legal Abortion For Hurricane Katrina.

Good riddance, Darrell Issa: A wasteful blowhard’s humiliating history.

After half a century of waiting – this gay couple were finally allowed to tie the knot.

Pastor Donnie Romero Says Gays Are ‘All Pedophiles’ Who Should Be ‘Put To Death’ (VIDEO).

Family Research Council Will Fix Constitutional Flaw That Allows Trans Americans Too Much Freedom.

I’m Still Bitter, Bill.

Becoming Willing to Tell Our (Tragically) Unflattering but Still (Super) Effective Stories of Trans Allyship.

Neil Gaiman recites Jabberwocky:

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Carol of the Bells (for 12 cellos) – ThePianoGuys:

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The Couch Gag Before Christmas | THE SIMPSONS | ANIMATION on FOX:

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President Obama Hijacks The Colbert Report ‘I, Stephen Colbert, Have Never Cared for Our President’ – President Obama literally takes over Stephen’s job for a segment, and it’s awesome:

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Mad Max: Fury Road – Official Theatrical Teaser Trailer [HD]:

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Iron Sky The Coming Race Official Teaser Trailer 1 (2016) – Fantasy Movie HD:

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DANIEL J CARTIER “THIS CHRISTMAS (STAY)”:

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[Official Video] Winter Wonderland/Don’t Worry Be Happy – Pentatonix (ft Tori Kelly):

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Annie Lennox – God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen:

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Musical packrat?

I have a large music collection (11,800+ songs, 83 gigabytes), but not the biggest in the world. I have at least one friend who, despite still having many hundreds of CDs he hasn’t imported into his digital collection, makes my digital music library look small.

No, what usually freaks people out is the size of my Christmas music collection: 9.8 gigabytes, or 1980 songs. That’s enough music that, if I just tried to listen to it all non-stop, it would take more than 4½ days.

I know that’s a lot.

Continue reading Musical packrat?

Two years ago today…

Feeding each other at the wedding.The sweetest, sexiest, most capable man I know said “I do” with me…